Kyte put this up and it seemed like a potentially disatrous thing tio spend some time on.

The rules:
* List 13 things you want to say to 13 different people.
* Don't say who they pertain to.
* Feel free to comment, but don't confirm or answer anything.
* Never discuss it again


1.) I miss you so much. You make me feel like a really good person whenever I'm around you. You let me be the mature one and the decision-maker, and that's so rare. You know how to correct me and guide me without hurting me. You're thoughtful, gentle and brilliant. Put-together, gorgeous, and strong. I love you to pieces and I wish I was there for you more.

2.) I miss the way you were when you were seven. I miss being a weird team, watching saturday morning cartoons and building absurd things out of lego. I was so bossy, but you dealt with it. You've always been cool. You were a leader in the way that you led without being obvious. I'm always trying to be like you.

3.) I like you so much I don't know what to do. I'm scared, because I've never been in any proper sort of relationship before, I don't know what's expected, and I can't tell if you're just all-around wonderful, or if you like me, too. You just make me so happy whenever you're around.

4.) You are simultaneously great and awful. One minute I want to strangle you, and the next you say some deep, stirring "right thing". You're tactless, but sensitive. Pushy, but profound. You are smarter than everyone else, but expect them to be on your level. Once in a while you make everything better.

5.) I think you're hilarious, understated and incredibly talented. I'm comfortable talking to you about things that have always embarassed or upset me. Somehow, I trust you. I wish I could do something nice for you the way you are always nice to me.

6.) I'm proud of you in so many ways. We've had such a strange on-again off-again friendship, and really, you're my oldest friend. I'm glad for the bonds of blood that force us to restart again and again instead of walking away. You're a bit like an anchor for a wandering soul like me. I've hated you, I've been terrified for you, bewildered by you, enamoured with you and jealous of you. You're so darn bi-polar.

7.) I feel like we dont have anything to talk about anymore. I just want you to be proud of me, and to give respect to my tastes and suggestions...I wish you would pay attention to me.

8.) I'm so glad that you're out on your own now. I've always been afraid for you. You've had to overcome so much, and I'm sure you've been through things that I don't know about, and that no-one should ever have to live through. You put on your confused shield, but underneath you are sweet and gentle and funny and kind. You are the most beautiful woman I have ever come across. You deserve so much better than you give yourself. Respect yourself first. The rest will come.

9.) I wish as as determined and strong as you are. I got mad at you a lot when we were kids, but maybe that was a power struggle. You're very "real". I suspect you're more conniving than you let on, but I've always taken you at face value. It's scary to think you might not be who I see you as. It's weird. But you have some sort of aura, some ability, and it makes you bright and irrisistable. You validate me.

10.) You confuse me. You seem to change every time I see you, which is not often now. I think you've matured a lot and become more stable. You used to be so impassioned all the time. Too sensitive and too manic. But you were so bright. Like some sort of insane butterfly. Whatever it was, it consumed you, briefly, and then fled. I don't know what to make of you. I'm still drawn to your personality, but I don't know you anymore.

11.) You destroyed me. Just crushed me flat. I can't talk about it yet. Someday.

12.) You're so much fun. You rermind me of a firefly. But you come from a really different reality than I do, and that's a little scary. I'm afraid you might not like me as much if you knew how reserved and inexperienced in everything I am. Would you think I was silly?

13.) You're very strange and sometimes unnerving, but I think you're kind at heart. I find that I have to be on my toes to communicate with you, and then I feel stupid when I trip up. But that one time, you were generous and relaxed and talkative and I felt realy cool.